During my absence

July 29, 2010
I float face down in the pool of my decadence
Silk sheets, serene summer days
Not a care in the world
Isolated from cruel reality
The suffering, the torment and pain of this world
Read about in newspapers but still unknown
No compassion or empathy
A dream i wish not to awake from
Slowly killing me, atrophy of true connection
Bonds forged in steel, cracked and rusted by the elements
My head into the heavens
All those below truly envious
Not knowing whats deep inside
Lazy, lack of motivation
Learn the tools of the trade
Abandon your dreams, leave them stranded
Lacking in purpose
I desire to be placed firmly on the ground
Still maintaining this new found peace and bliss
Seek out the beauty in this world
Educate young minds of the great struggle
Pass down generation after generation
As soon as i step back into reality


July 30, 2010
Spreading the mantra into the hearts of millions
Rain or sunshine
Sunrise or sunset
The masses gather and cheer
Shoulder to shoulder, brother and sister
Right here for you, never to depart
Remain by your side, until my last breath
Six feet under, in my Sunday best
Carry the torch, the flames still burn red
Sprint to the finish line
Angels lead the way
The brightest stars, burn out too soon
Let their words echo through the halls of time
Channeling their energy, full of new life
Restored, build, create
Their voices motivating, in your hands
Brick by brick, towering skyscrapers
The rich soil of understanding
Holding us in place
Fully grown , tall and proud
Still  cultivate and toil
Dont let their seeds go to waste


July 31, 2010
Crawling, wounded and out of breath
She threw her arms around me
Weeping and crying out
Her heart an open sore
I exposed to light, exploiting  i took advantage
Demons crawl into my ears
Spreading wicked thoughts
Methods for her exposure
Taking control of her vulnerable spirit
I plot, laying in wait for the call
Unbroken, mended, regaining balance
A swift escape, she runs into his arms once more
Leaving me bare and sensitive
No one comes to my aid
I hide in shadows
Make sure no one can see my faults
The doubt takes my arm
Showing the hideous monster ive become
His introduction, taking my thoughts
I block out the world, self conscience and worrisome


August 1, 2010
Stars scatter across the galaxy
Holding my head high
Witness to the epic performance
The sun fades  to black
Clouds give way to this grand Colosseum
Memories return to me
Falling into my subconscious
Unable to escape
No desire for escape
Arms tightening embrace
Nails puncture my spine
Frantic breathing
Levitating, weightless
Burdens carried off by a chilling breeze
My trials and tribulations
Servants at my beckon call
The drums become louder
Their pace quickening as i reach my zenith
Back in my warm bed
Rolling over, fulfilled like never before


August 2, 2010
My  body filled with grit and litter
Under the covers
Unproductive, letting time tick by
The clocks judging stare
A night of debauchery and recklessness
The knife to my wrist, gun to my head
Hangman's noose, overdose
I laugh in the face of death
Shaking his hand
His off color jokes, rolling on the floor
My mistress, deceptive Medusa
Pump poison into me
Her evil cackle still deep within
Never to depart me
I love it so
Slash in the jugular
I lay on this bed of tears
Blood boiling in the mid day sun
Forgetful and recovering


August  3, 2010
The  sounds of ancestors
Fusion, hooks and melodies
The blending of cultures
Meshing of societies, so beautiful
Walls torn down before my eyes
Gorgeous, drop dead gorgeous
My eyes filled with tears
At peace in my bubble of unity
I complete the beautiful quilt
Adding my patches and fabric
Unique designs, off beat patterns
Destined to make eyebrows raise
Rear my head, tickle my diaphragm
I feed off jealousy, hidden under wraps
Labeled, misunderstanding
Bagpipes and violins
Nod my head to bongos
Judgmental, scratching their heads
Dazed and confused
Laughter breaks loose
Second to the index finger
The only gift they will receive from me


August 4, 2010
A clan of caffeine addicts
Stress, filling them to the brim
Found inner peace, a bond uniting them forever
Connections i'll never know
I do not belong, go away
I'll leave this place, still broken, incomplete
I don't deserve your happiness
Only pain and misery
On going conflict
They're voices keep me company
For eternity
They reach out
I cut off their hands
Peak through the key hole
Behold whats on the other side
I gouge their eyes out
Raise up above the fence
Spy on the other side
I sever their heads
No resolution, no calm, no peace


August 5, 2010
The questions, intrusive and uninvited
From my so called protectors, old and bitter
I put my trust in them
Foolish mistake
Wade through the lies
This marsh deepens every hour
Angry, fire melts my pupils
Dishonesty fans the flames
Causing my body to pick up speed
Slamn , past the window sill
Down two stories, splattered on the pavement
Self hatred builds up inside
Waiting to be unleashed
Ready to take me to the extreme
Drastic measures, planned by the confused
Last resort, to combat my suffering
Swift reaction to the on going lies
Throw my hands into the sky
Scream and shout
Ive reached my bitter end
Unable to contain my true side
Alter ego, evil mind
He's made escape
Be alert